Im so fed up with my current life. Completely fed up with everyone and everything.
Maybe its just hormones, but I cant take it anymore. All I want to do is lock myself in my apartment and not see anyone and not hear anyone. Leave me alone people!
That, or go somewhere far far far away.
So desperate times call for desperate measures. I just submitted my visa application for Australia.
If everything goes well, I should be-free myself from worrying parents, annoying or (even worse) indifferent friends, a hopeless relationship, an unsatisfying job, pointless studies and a ridiculously stupid country by September. (I will miss my cat though...)
The question is, what will I find there where? The "better future" that everyone is looking for? Whats that? I think I wouldnt recognize it if it hit me in the face. New better friends? I dont think so. A satisfying job? Maybe, if you can make a career out of working in farms. A new relationship? I dont even want to let go of the old one. Have I thought this through?
Not really, but when have I ever?
Let me get the visa first... and then we talk about it.
ps: Visa approved on the same day. Now I have to make the choice. When? Do I wait to hit bottom or do I run away in fear of deterioration of things?
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