Post-election vacuum

Post-Nepal period... approaching Christmas.. Im in lethargic bliss.. I dont want to do anything but sit at home and kill all the hours in the day doing absolutely nothing! Every opportunity to leave the house is an obligation I must bare and being home with my cats is actively the only thing I want to do. 

I remember sitting in my dirty room at the Pawan International Hotel after a long day of meetings and driving around the villages, feeling (only slightly) lonely and thinking that when Im back in Cyprus I will do my best to live life to the fullest, I will meet my friends more, I will talk to people more, I will go to the theater more, etc etc. And now I just dont want to do any of these things. I just want to sit at home and daydream, read, watch movies and play games. Im rejecting real life once more. Why? 

Maybe I still need time to recover from my adventure in Nepal, although it feels so far away right now, like it never happened or like a vague story that happened to someone else. I dont talk about it much anymore and I didnt get to explain to anyone exactly what it was, how it felt and what life was like there. I can never do that. No one would have the patience to listen to me anyway. Maybe if Im feeling inspired I can write about it soon. Before I forget anyway, because the memory will eventually become twisted and then it will fade away.. 

I really should write more about my travels. Maybe this solitude I'm seeking now will help me focus and write. I always write about feelings and not much about what happened to me to cause those feelings. I dont mind, I can always remember when I read my posts what exactly it was that caused that feeling. But maybe I'll forget one day. So this could be my new project. Gather up all those diaries from the years of traveling and start putting it all on a story-line. Im not sure I can do that though, writing your thoughts as they pop out of your head is very different than actually describing facts and places and writing stories.. not sure I have the story-telling gift. But I can try. Im not in the race for the nobel prize in literature anyway.

 Lets see how it goes!