Expecting a child is a life experience.. a journey of its own... it gives meaning to moments.. watching that belly grow, imagining a human life form inside... its crazy. I like being pregnant, its an overall happy time, despite the difficult start and what I can only imagine will be a very, very difficult ending..
Its been almost 9 months and Im still unprepared, physically and psychologically of what's to come.. too many things to consider therefore, typical me, I postpone all the thinking and planning. Almost 9 months pregnant, baby room not ready yet, nothing baby-related has been bought, hospital bag only has pyjamas in it and Im ignoring the possibility that a twist of luck could send me to the clinic for birth any minute now.
Deep breaths, everything will be alright. I still have a couple of weeks before really worrying about rushing to the hospital without a hospital bag. Small steps HAVE been taken towards collecting baby-related stuff. Once we start moving, we will get everything ready in no time (we wont have a choice, there will be no time left).
As for what happens after birth.. really havent thought about it at all.. What will happen when the little bundle of joy is here? How will I handle this life-changing event? My thoughts usually stop at birth, but Im slowly starting to contemplate that life after birth will be something totally different. I cant really imagine it, so my thoughts cant go that far. But they are slowly starting to wander beyond, which is a good thing.. Everything will be ok...
The funny thing is, and Im berating myself for it, that I still want to go out, meet friends, have fun. Drink the occasional glass of wine, walk around, see people. More often than not, Im too tired for it, so I stay home thinking "maybe tomorrow". But I still get FOMO, I want to be out there with the world, socialize, dance. Maybe this will change when Hermione is here. Probably I will be too tired to even think about it. But while shes safe in the belly, I want to see things outside the house.
What will the future bring...? I wonder... I was never good at waiting.. Maybe its the characteristic of a control freak, the "wait and see" approach doesnt work, you want to control all possibilities, predict and pre-act.. As much as I seem carefree, thoughts of the future get the best of me some times (read: worries). I want to know whats coming.
Love is coming, that's for sure. Care and sleepless nights and lots of hormones are coming. I can handle it. It 'll be alright.
It's a whole new adventure. Like traveling to a completely new place.
I think I'll enjoy it.
Its been almost 9 months and Im still unprepared, physically and psychologically of what's to come.. too many things to consider therefore, typical me, I postpone all the thinking and planning. Almost 9 months pregnant, baby room not ready yet, nothing baby-related has been bought, hospital bag only has pyjamas in it and Im ignoring the possibility that a twist of luck could send me to the clinic for birth any minute now.
Deep breaths, everything will be alright. I still have a couple of weeks before really worrying about rushing to the hospital without a hospital bag. Small steps HAVE been taken towards collecting baby-related stuff. Once we start moving, we will get everything ready in no time (we wont have a choice, there will be no time left).
As for what happens after birth.. really havent thought about it at all.. What will happen when the little bundle of joy is here? How will I handle this life-changing event? My thoughts usually stop at birth, but Im slowly starting to contemplate that life after birth will be something totally different. I cant really imagine it, so my thoughts cant go that far. But they are slowly starting to wander beyond, which is a good thing.. Everything will be ok...
The funny thing is, and Im berating myself for it, that I still want to go out, meet friends, have fun. Drink the occasional glass of wine, walk around, see people. More often than not, Im too tired for it, so I stay home thinking "maybe tomorrow". But I still get FOMO, I want to be out there with the world, socialize, dance. Maybe this will change when Hermione is here. Probably I will be too tired to even think about it. But while shes safe in the belly, I want to see things outside the house.
What will the future bring...? I wonder... I was never good at waiting.. Maybe its the characteristic of a control freak, the "wait and see" approach doesnt work, you want to control all possibilities, predict and pre-act.. As much as I seem carefree, thoughts of the future get the best of me some times (read: worries). I want to know whats coming.
Love is coming, that's for sure. Care and sleepless nights and lots of hormones are coming. I can handle it. It 'll be alright.
It's a whole new adventure. Like traveling to a completely new place.
I think I'll enjoy it.
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